memories of nobody
Jun 4, 2008;
its been two wks since ive slashed the thread of fate myself(which i blame the zanpaktou for not being sharp enough to separate it totally).... it was kinda like a lie, cos it was so hard to get over it. i tot it'll be easy, cos it wasnt as strong and it faded a lot... but still, when the impact came, it still hurt a lot.
"if its serious, you wouldnt be able to get over it so easily" someone told me that. of cos i know, but it happens so many times, i tot this time it would hurt lesser than the rest. but it was worse. i guess cos i had to see it happen, making it hurt even more.
i guess it was like the rest... my logical self and emotional self had to clash. i tried to reduce the blow, by focusing on the -ves and explaining things logically. but its just so hard. i actually even got jealous of some of the ppl in my kazoku (gosh now that was stupid). it really was a crazy period.
but now it all ends (hopefully). i guess what i can to is only to take it all in and treat it as another dream being rudely woken up.... or i can just play dumb (which is quite impossible). or, i could just focus more on my life, the ppl who truly care for me (esp my kazoku) and my forever passion.... and hope another dream will come knocking by, to wash away the traces of the previous one....
.... dun wanna wake up from this dream ....
