in memory of heath ledger, the best ever
Jul 20, 2008;
looking back at that day where i happily stepped into the theater, so cheerfully waiting for the movie to start, it seems so ironic to the way i stepped out of it, emotionally changed. heath ledger was only but a mere name that popped up in the papers a few months ago, yet now i feel so much for him.
He was a great actor, one who wanted his work to be embedded in many minds for years to come. and truly such a day had come, where his greatest work of the Joker would be remembered so fondly. I was totally captured by the soul of Joker, for not a hint of humaneness was in him; the way he kills without meaning, the way that devilish smug flashes across, that "why so serious?" voice... he broke his glass ceiling for the Joker, which may have pushed him even closer to Death.
ever since thurs, its like an obsession for me to search all about him, his works, life, personality... i realised that i had watched a no. of movies from him, only i didnt know his name then...heath was a wonderful person that allowed his creativity to gain control over him, maybe too much of him... his love for acting and breaking out of the box to give the audience a surprise amazes me of his dedication to his job.... he seemed ever so perfect, but god is always fair. In giving him his talent he was also burdened with insomia and many problems, of which robbed him of his family, energy and eventually, his life. 16 years of his career and just as he reached his prime, he's unable to continue on.
Many said that they had saw it coming, that his drug abuse was gonna get him into trouble. if it was so, did they support him and help him through his addiction? didnt anyone paid more attention to him despite his seemingly "im ok" reply? and what of the video that he made in memory of nick drake, wasnt that of, maybe a cry for help? but no matter whether these hints are truly reflective of his condition then, one thing's been made a fact. heath ledger's death, even till now, has affected many and while they are trying to cope with the loss of heath, one thing's for sure.
his death has now so much an impact on me. that great sense of tragedy and loss has smouldered me for the past few days and as i repeat my daily routine of google-ing about him, i wonder to myself :" why so serious?"
heath was the best that he had ever been, and in his 28 short years, god was kind to let him enjoy his life, his work, his family, his love and his daughter. heath could have been more, but he'll agree that he already had everything that he needed to had and experienced before he left us.
rest in peace, heath ledger.
.... dun wanna wake up from this dream ....