Jul 29, 2009;
currently feeling: hyper depressed
ok, so even though i've not blogged for like at least 3694850383458671 hours, i'm still gonna keep this short and simple. only because i cant say anything to anyone at this pt in time, but ppl like dear carol will understand, or maybe not.
so its the cors season now, and im feeling uber low because i cant take all my mods with her. its just the insecurity in me that i cant stand going to lectures alone. i'm really freaking out abt it. i dun wanna be a loner but circumstances force me to, carol has her own life and i know i cant always cling onto her. but sometimes i just wish things will work out just as nicely as ojisan and sq (they dun seem to have any problems coordinating). but carol doesnt understand, sure she can handle things on her own, but im different. i guess i nvr did change during the camp.
haiz, if this keeps up, im gonna have my feelings fluctuated until i become even more split personality le. i really really dun wanna go to sch alone.... think im gonna crash even b4 sch starts.
and speaking of feelings, mine are totally messed up now. the road suddenly changed and now i'm utterly confused as to what to do. not to mention the daily dreams every time i fall asleep, which are so real i really cant tell reality from dream. worse part is i dun wanna repeat things that happened in the past agn.... argh the agony.
back to cors planning i guess, pray everything turns out ok...
.... dun wanna wake up from this dream ....
